Hiatus

Hellooooo
Since I haven't posted in like a year, thought I might as well write about life this how hectic these few months are...! Breaking up isn't as easy as I thought it might have been, there's always this stage where everyone's been there and done that, but I never thought it'll be as miserable as I have felt.
I guess you just realise what is precious when you lose it, and I've learnt that the hard way.
TBH, the hardest is getting over someone when that person is lightyears ahead already and completely over you, the worse part is when you realised you've been used for like a couple months previous to the actual 'clean break' then that's what hurts and no shit, it hurts a hell lot.

However, this little flower has found another love, although I might not be in love with him I do hope good things will come between us :) he is absolutely a gem to keep and is SUPER sweet!! Perhaps he is the key for me to give up, and move on and in the long run who knows maybe this relationship would lead to bigger and better things in life, but after the previous experience I've learnt to be rather pessimistic about the future, so let me just be happy in the present for now :)

Therefore, although I've spent my first valentines alone in UK, at least I've learnt something, and from that it would allow me to grow from thy weakling self to someone who is...just less weak and defenceless... :) and who knows..maybe someday I'll find that special someone and I'll be happily married, the end. (If life was that easy :/) Really need to get over myself sometimes, hopefully good things come to those who wait~


The depressed but happy pilgrim,

Cx